Destiny or Death. Two seemingly opposite roads. Destiny is the antithesis of death, right? But think about it. Are they really that different? I don't think so. Both of them come down to decisions you make. So think of it this way: Decisions = Destiny or Death. What does that really mean? Of course I am going to explain it to you.
Let's use a simple situation: weightloss. You make the resolution that you want to lose weight. But when it is time to workout, do you make the decision to go to the gym? Or when it is dinner time, do you make the decision to eat wisely or do you run by the golden arches? Both decisions affect your outcome. If you chose to head to the gym and eat a salad, then you are choosing to achieve your goal/destiny. But if you chose to sit on the couch and eat a burger, then you turned your back on your goal and selected death. Get it? Good.
Now, let's take it to the next level. What is your God-ordained destiny? What does that really look like? That means walking in obedience. That means making the God-influenced choice. And what does death look like? Being out of sync with God's Word. And once again, both come down to decisions you make. Seemingly simple decisions have big outcomes. And it is the simple decisions that are so important. I really do not believe that anyone ever woke up and said, "today i am going to throw away my destiny. I choose death! Yay." I think the conversation is more like this, "This one time isn't going to hurt." But that one time, leads to a next time, which leads to death. Or have you said this "I can always start tomorrow." But remember what grandmama said? "Tomorrow ain't promised." So you put off doing what was right and Godly, and now you have to answer for it.
Think back to 2009. What did you have planned for 2009? Did you achieve it? Why? Did you make the right choices? Was 2009 marked with destiny or death?
2010 is around the corner. How will this year be remembered? What are you going to choose - destiny or death? It's your decision.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Do You Believe?
Everyone says to ask God for what you need. I don't believe that it is soley for for material things. I believe that He gives you spiritual gifts to help you attain what you want/need. But the word says in Matthew 9:29 "29Then he touched their eyes and said, 'According to your faith will it be done to you'". And in James 4:2 "You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God."
So receiving blessings from God is not a quick fix it. You have to first be obedient. Next, you have to have faith that God can do what you are asking Him to do. And finally, you have to make your requests to Him.
So do you believe God can deliver you? Do you believe He can do all that the Bible says that He can do? Do you trust God? Do you have faith?
So receiving blessings from God is not a quick fix it. You have to first be obedient. Next, you have to have faith that God can do what you are asking Him to do. And finally, you have to make your requests to Him.
So do you believe God can deliver you? Do you believe He can do all that the Bible says that He can do? Do you trust God? Do you have faith?
Sharing Vision
Several times today I was questioned by folks close to me about what I am believing God for. These weren't casual friends. These are core friends. The ones that you call on when you need to vent or holler. Bosom buddies. And today wasn't the day to press me. Today was already tense because what I am expecting God to deliver seemed further away than ever. So when friends & family questioned my vision it was hard to handle. Just because I didn't have the breakthrough this morning doesn't mean that it's not coming. But I am not deterred... what God has for me, is for me. Just because you - family, friend, or foe - can't see the breakthru, doesn't mean that it isn't on the way. God spoke to MY spirit not yours. How can I expect you to understand when He wasn't talking to you? So don't knock my expectation of deliverance. Instead pray for my healing. Support my obedience. If the situation was reversed, I would pray for u.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Merry Christmas
Luke 2:8-16
"8And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. 9An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. 11Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ[a] the Lord. 12This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
13Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14"Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
15When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."
16So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. 17When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, 18and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. 20The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told."
What is your most treasured possession? Your house? Your car? Your family? For me it is my family. I can not imagine giving up any member of my family to go live in another country knowing they will untimately be put to death for someone else's crimes. Can you imagine that? But that is what our Father did. He gave His son Jesus fully knowing what would happen to Him on Earth. That is am amazing, wonderful gift. So before you unwrap another present or complain about what you did or didn't get, remember we've already received the greatest gift of all - Salvation through Jesus Christ.
Merry Christmas.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Remove the Fog
Wow. This was a great morning and it is just 6:38a. Amen! Why? Because God will use the most mundane of events as a prompt for you to share His Word.
This morning, I woke up in a funky mood. So I grabbed my Bible and some notes and went to work changing that mood. Later, as I headed to work I was stunned by the thick fog. Not just a little sprinkling of fog here and there, but thick, pea soup looking fog. Horror movie fog. Do you have a mental picture yet? Good.
So I am driving super slow trying to look out for things that could jump out at me. I am really creeping along. Thankfully I made it to work. And thought nothing else about the fog.
As I sat at my computer wondering what to write, the fog popped back into my mind. I paused for a moment then the light bulb came on! The fog was definitely something that I had to write about.
Think about it. My morning drive did not change because of the fog. I took the same roads that I took yesterday, right? But the fog clouded my perception of the journey. The fog added an element of fear where just 24 hours prior there was no fear. The fog clouded my vision.
Now take that same concept to a spiritual level. You are surrounded with family and friends. You are loved by your Father in heaven and by scores of people around you. And at one point you believed that. You found comfort in that. But satan has slowly clouded your vision of that love with his fog. The same family and friends are there for you - even more so - but you can't see it because of satan's fog. That fog has you believing that you are alone. But the truth is the Father has you firmly in His grasp.
So today I am praying that satan's fog is removed from those that read this blog. That the winds of the Holy Spirit will wipe the spiritual landscape clean and give you clear vision. I pray that the fog parts so you can get a glimpse of not only your future and destiny, but also the love that God has in place for you right now. So tell the fog to move. You believe the sun/Son is shining.
This morning, I woke up in a funky mood. So I grabbed my Bible and some notes and went to work changing that mood. Later, as I headed to work I was stunned by the thick fog. Not just a little sprinkling of fog here and there, but thick, pea soup looking fog. Horror movie fog. Do you have a mental picture yet? Good.
So I am driving super slow trying to look out for things that could jump out at me. I am really creeping along. Thankfully I made it to work. And thought nothing else about the fog.
As I sat at my computer wondering what to write, the fog popped back into my mind. I paused for a moment then the light bulb came on! The fog was definitely something that I had to write about.
Think about it. My morning drive did not change because of the fog. I took the same roads that I took yesterday, right? But the fog clouded my perception of the journey. The fog added an element of fear where just 24 hours prior there was no fear. The fog clouded my vision.
Now take that same concept to a spiritual level. You are surrounded with family and friends. You are loved by your Father in heaven and by scores of people around you. And at one point you believed that. You found comfort in that. But satan has slowly clouded your vision of that love with his fog. The same family and friends are there for you - even more so - but you can't see it because of satan's fog. That fog has you believing that you are alone. But the truth is the Father has you firmly in His grasp.
So today I am praying that satan's fog is removed from those that read this blog. That the winds of the Holy Spirit will wipe the spiritual landscape clean and give you clear vision. I pray that the fog parts so you can get a glimpse of not only your future and destiny, but also the love that God has in place for you right now. So tell the fog to move. You believe the sun/Son is shining.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Understanding The Enemy
The enemy and I have been wrestling recently. I am saddened to say that he snuck up on me. I have been given specific instructions on what to do while in God's waiting room. As I have written about many times before, patience is something that I am constantly working on. I believe that a breakthrough is coming. I really do. And that should be enough. But I HATE waiting. I want to scream "come on already." And that is where satan gets me. He says, "you deserve an answer. You've waited long enough. You don't have to take this." And a couple of times, I've slipped. I've thought, "you know what! You're right! I deserve better than this." The enemy doesn't always attack thru another person, but can attack when you are seemingly alone. I am at a point where I can't sit alone. If I find myself by myself, I have to fill the space with the Word of God. If I don't the enemy will creep in. The enemy never yells at you or has a tshirt that says "caution/wrong way." The enemy creeps in through whispers and subconscious thoughts that then get manifested into action.
And he attacks when you are hurt. When you are tired of the hurting and are looking for anyway out. Here is how I envision the waiting room: I am in an old waiting room. No tv but lots of reading material. There are two doors. Door A is calling people at a very slow rate and even when door A calls you, you have to walk up a long, steep, uphill hallway. You are assigned a nurse to help you make the journey up the hallway and when you get to the back room there is healing and rejoicing. While you are sitting in the waiting room you hear people crying as they walk up Door A's hallway. There is a second door - Door B. Door B is calling people back at a much faster rate. Their hallway slants downhill and has food, drinks, and music. You can hear those in Hallway B laughing and partying as they head down the hallway. What you don't see is at the end of Hallway B is hell - torment.
So go back to the waiting room. Imagine yourself sitting in the waiting room. You are waiting for Door A. You know you are supposed to wait on Door A. But you are tired of waiting, and you see folks heading to Door B and having a great time. You know you aren't supposed to go thru Door B. But lets be honest, you are tired of waiting. That is where I am. And that is when the enemy will tell you, "come on to Door B. You deserve better than this waiting." But you and I have to rebuke him. Declare:
Psalm 5:3 "In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation."
Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD."
Psalm 33:20"We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield."
Psalm 37:7 "Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes."
Psalm 40:1 "I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry."
Psalm 119:166 "I wait for your salvation, O LORD, and I follow your commands."
Psalm 130:5 "I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope."
Proverbs 20:22 "Do not say, "I'll pay you back for this wrong!" Wait for the LORD, and he will deliver you."
Isaiah 30:18 "Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!"
Lamentations 3:24 "I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."
Lamentations 3:26 "it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD."
Be believe that breakthrough is on the way. Don't be discouraged when the answer doesn't come as quickly as you want it. Speak into your situation and practice Godly patience. Wait on Door A. Wait on God.
And he attacks when you are hurt. When you are tired of the hurting and are looking for anyway out. Here is how I envision the waiting room: I am in an old waiting room. No tv but lots of reading material. There are two doors. Door A is calling people at a very slow rate and even when door A calls you, you have to walk up a long, steep, uphill hallway. You are assigned a nurse to help you make the journey up the hallway and when you get to the back room there is healing and rejoicing. While you are sitting in the waiting room you hear people crying as they walk up Door A's hallway. There is a second door - Door B. Door B is calling people back at a much faster rate. Their hallway slants downhill and has food, drinks, and music. You can hear those in Hallway B laughing and partying as they head down the hallway. What you don't see is at the end of Hallway B is hell - torment.
So go back to the waiting room. Imagine yourself sitting in the waiting room. You are waiting for Door A. You know you are supposed to wait on Door A. But you are tired of waiting, and you see folks heading to Door B and having a great time. You know you aren't supposed to go thru Door B. But lets be honest, you are tired of waiting. That is where I am. And that is when the enemy will tell you, "come on to Door B. You deserve better than this waiting." But you and I have to rebuke him. Declare:
Psalm 5:3 "In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation."
Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD."
Psalm 33:20"We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield."
Psalm 37:7 "Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes."
Psalm 40:1 "I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry."
Psalm 119:166 "I wait for your salvation, O LORD, and I follow your commands."
Psalm 130:5 "I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope."
Proverbs 20:22 "Do not say, "I'll pay you back for this wrong!" Wait for the LORD, and he will deliver you."
Isaiah 30:18 "Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!"
Lamentations 3:24 "I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."
Lamentations 3:26 "it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD."
Be believe that breakthrough is on the way. Don't be discouraged when the answer doesn't come as quickly as you want it. Speak into your situation and practice Godly patience. Wait on Door A. Wait on God.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
2010 Manifesto
My life is mine. For better or worse, the decisions I make are my own.
I plan to live my life in a way that honors God. I believe that God is my saviour and He will bless my obedience. I don't think the road will be easy but I believe the eternal rewards far outweigh the earthly trials.
I am responsible for my own journey and that's it. I can not make anyone walk with me, beside me, or for me. Just like I cannot walk anyone else's journey. This is personal. Only 1 person can walk with you if you invite them, and that is God. I have to renew daily my belief that He is with me at every moment. That thought will comfort me and guide me.
I believe that my health is my responsiblity and by not taking care of my "temple" I dishonor God. I can carve out a few minutes each day for the betterment of my body.
I am responsible for living fully and living happily. No one else is responsible for my happiness. If I don't make time for myself and my well-being, no one else will. If I don't learn - and practice - how to live my life fully, how can I ever teach my daughters to live theirs fully.
I believe that love is the most important gift I can offer the world. I will be more patient and loving of myself and others. I will wrap myself in the love of those that care about me and in the love of God. And I will extend that love to others..
(so why wait until 2010.. let's start now...)
I plan to live my life in a way that honors God. I believe that God is my saviour and He will bless my obedience. I don't think the road will be easy but I believe the eternal rewards far outweigh the earthly trials.
I am responsible for my own journey and that's it. I can not make anyone walk with me, beside me, or for me. Just like I cannot walk anyone else's journey. This is personal. Only 1 person can walk with you if you invite them, and that is God. I have to renew daily my belief that He is with me at every moment. That thought will comfort me and guide me.
I believe that my health is my responsiblity and by not taking care of my "temple" I dishonor God. I can carve out a few minutes each day for the betterment of my body.
I am responsible for living fully and living happily. No one else is responsible for my happiness. If I don't make time for myself and my well-being, no one else will. If I don't learn - and practice - how to live my life fully, how can I ever teach my daughters to live theirs fully.
I believe that love is the most important gift I can offer the world. I will be more patient and loving of myself and others. I will wrap myself in the love of those that care about me and in the love of God. And I will extend that love to others..
(so why wait until 2010.. let's start now...)
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Fun? What fun?
Two days ago I took my youngest shopping for Christmas presents. She hated it! Her rationale? "This isn't fun." And I thought to myself, "no, it's not fun. It's necessary." I can recall the last time I had fun. I know the exact date: Nov 9th. It is now December 19th. That sucks. So where did the fun go? Where did the laughter go? Where did the uncalculated moves go?
I am grateful for my job. I am grateful for my family. But where do I fit in other than to be the glue that holds everything together? When is someone going to look out for me? I know. I know. If I don't look out for me, how can I expect anyone else too, right? I knew you were going to say that. But even when I try to schedule some fun. Those plans get thwarted. I really tried to schedule some "let's just grab a movie time." I was calculated about it. Grab the movie after the kids are sleep so they won't be a headache for the babysitter. But ummm, nope that didn't happen.
Remember I said that in 2010, I am taking a break. I am hoping I make it to 2010, because right now, it's not looking so hot.
I am grateful for my job. I am grateful for my family. But where do I fit in other than to be the glue that holds everything together? When is someone going to look out for me? I know. I know. If I don't look out for me, how can I expect anyone else too, right? I knew you were going to say that. But even when I try to schedule some fun. Those plans get thwarted. I really tried to schedule some "let's just grab a movie time." I was calculated about it. Grab the movie after the kids are sleep so they won't be a headache for the babysitter. But ummm, nope that didn't happen.
Remember I said that in 2010, I am taking a break. I am hoping I make it to 2010, because right now, it's not looking so hot.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Bah Hum Bug
I am so tired of the holidays. Yes, I am ready for January 9th. Just a regular day. Why am I so down on the holiday? It has become too much. Just too much. Too much money. Too much shopping. Too much baking. Too much time spent chasing a holiday. I am over it.
Yes, I want my kids to have a nice Christmas. But I am more excited for Christmas service. And I can't wait until NYE service. I am expecting great things to manifest. I am expecting a breakthrough. I am expecting folks to be "loosed" from things and healing to commence. And really, that is where all of my energy and focus is going. I don't want to fill out Christmas cards. I don't want to shop. I don't want to wrap presents. This year the material items just aren't as shiny to me. God has done so much for me already that nothing under the tree can compare. And what I am expecting from Him is more miraculous than anything that can be gift wrapped.
So Christmas hasn't lost its luster. But the holidays sure have.
Yes, I want my kids to have a nice Christmas. But I am more excited for Christmas service. And I can't wait until NYE service. I am expecting great things to manifest. I am expecting a breakthrough. I am expecting folks to be "loosed" from things and healing to commence. And really, that is where all of my energy and focus is going. I don't want to fill out Christmas cards. I don't want to shop. I don't want to wrap presents. This year the material items just aren't as shiny to me. God has done so much for me already that nothing under the tree can compare. And what I am expecting from Him is more miraculous than anything that can be gift wrapped.
So Christmas hasn't lost its luster. But the holidays sure have.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Sermon notes
FYI: These are my notes from Bishop Joseph Walker's sermons the past 2 weeks. They speak right to where I was when I wanted to quit.
Sermon from 12/6/09
“I Almost Quit” Jeremiah 20:7-9, 12-13
(This is where Jeremiah is tired and ready to resign )
7 O LORD, you deceived [a] me, and I was deceived [b] ;
you overpowered me and prevailed.
I am ridiculed all day long;
everyone mocks me.
8 Whenever I speak, I cry out
proclaiming violence and destruction.
So the word of the LORD has brought me
insult and reproach all day long.
(This is where he tries to resign but can’t )
9 But if I say, "I will not mention him
or speak any more in his name,"
his word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
indeed, I cannot.
(This is where his determination is renewed )
12 O LORD Almighty, you who examine the righteous
and probe the heart and mind,
let me see your vengeance upon them,
for to you I have committed my cause.
(This is where Jeremiah celebrates )
13 Sing to the LORD!
Give praise to the LORD!
He rescues the life of the needy
from the hands of the wicked.
The first thing you need to know is
1. You matter
2. You are important to the Kingdom
I. The Assignment is Tough
Jeremiah 1:5 “ 5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew [a] you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."
A. There is a conflict between your flesh and your spirit. Your flesh doesn’t want you to complete the task because it’s hard, but your spirit knows that you have to keep going.
B. You are being challenged by those around you.
C. You are facing constant frustration
i. Intimidation: enemy trying to stop you
ii. Humiliation: the enemy using your torment to stop others
iii. Annihilation: the enemy trying to stop God by stopping you
II. Anointed for the trial
A. If God sent you to the appointment, then He anointed you for the trial. His hand is on you and will be with you throughout the trials.
B. And if God sent you in, He will bring you out.
III. Awesome Testimony
A. When you get out of the trial, you will have an awesome testimony about how God can see you through seemingly impossible situations.
Here is Bishop’s alliteration:
You were in a SITUATION that was so tough that you were contemplating RESIGNATION. But you remembered your CONSECRATION(anointing) thus remembering your OBLIGATIONS. God sends a word (church/Bible study/friends) to give you DETERMINATION. And you shouldn’t worry about your haters because God handles VINDICATION. All God requires of you is that you give Him the CELEBRATION right now.
Sermon notes 12/13/09“A Word While You Are Waiting”Galatians 6:9 “9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”
Often people (me) get frustrated while waiting for God’s plan to come to fruition. God gave you the vision, and you are acting on it, but you start wondering when will the vision move from your future to your present. That is the waiting period. The enemy wants you to give up. And the closer you get to the vision coming to pass, the more the enemy will try to frustrate you to get you to move out of purpose.
I. You have to be Faithful beyond frustrations
2 Corinthians 4:16 “16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.”
1 Timothy 6:12 “12Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses”
John 15:1 “ 1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful.”
Pain should never eclipse your purpose!!!!
A. Peace (Philipians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”) You have to have peace in the midst of the trials. Keep your mind on Jesus, not on the pain/frustrations.
B. Productive: You have to keep doing God’s work even while you are going through the trials.
C. Present: You have to keep showing up. Show up to church. Show up to work. Show up to your personal devotion time.
II. You have to Focus on the Facts
The fact is that GOD has given you an assignment/a vision/ a direction. Keep your eyes on that! We want God to make everything work on our time but His time is not ours!
Remember you are not the first person to get frustrated with waiting: Job was frustrated and Jeremiah was too. Lots of people get tired of waiting, but they still don’t abandon their assignments.
Job 7:1 “"Does not man have hard service on earth?
Are not his days like those of a hired man?”
(Life is hard)
Job 14:5 “ 5 Man's days are determined;
you have decreed the number of his months
and have set limits he cannot exceed.”
Our days are limited but God is infinite.
Job 14:14 “If a man dies, will he live again?
All the days of my hard service
I will wait for my renewal [a] to come.”
(On the hard days you have to look to God for renewal.)
A. You have prophetic evidence. Remember God spoke to you! Believe God!
B. You have to have proper ethics. Just because you are going thru, doesn’t give you the right to act a fool. You have to do good works in spite of the pain.)
C. You must have a posture of expectancy. Look like what you are believing God for! Don’t walk around downtrodden but hold your head up!
God keeps His promises.
Hebrews 6:13 “13When God made his promise to Abraham, since there was no one greater for him to swear by, he swore by himself,”
Numbers 23:19 “19 God is not a man, that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?”
III. You must Fight to the Finish!
A. You can’t give up. (see last weeks sermon notes)
B. You have to SOW into God’s Kingdom.
i. Tithe
ii. Spend time with God in His presence
C. Serve: Stay on your post. Keep doing God’s work.
D. Spiritual: Psalm 102:1-13
(This part is the frustrations of the person crying out)
1 Hear my prayer, O LORD;
let my cry for help come to you.
2 Do not hide your face from me
when I am in distress.
Turn your ear to me;
when I call, answer me quickly.
(I need You right now. I need a word this moment)
3 For my days vanish like smoke;
my bones burn like glowing embers.
4 My heart is blighted and withered like grass;
I forget to eat my food.
5 Because of my loud groaning
I am reduced to skin and bones.
6 I am like a desert owl,
like an owl among the ruins.
7 I lie awake; I have become
like a bird alone on a roof.
8 All day long my enemies taunt me;
those who rail against me use my name as a curse.
9 For I eat ashes as my food
and mingle my drink with tears
10 because of your great wrath,
for you have taken me up and thrown me aside.
(feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster)
11 My days are like the evening shadow;
I wither away like grass.
(I am withering away and don’t know how much more I can take!)
12 But you, O LORD, sit enthroned forever;
your renown endures through all generations.
13 You will arise and have compassion on Zion,
for it is time to show favor to her;
the appointed time has come.
(but I still believe in You and Your Greatness. You have been good to generations before me and will be good to those to come. I know that Your blessing is upon us. I know that deliverance is NOW.)
You can catch the 2nd sermon on www.mtzionanywhere.org
Sermon from 12/6/09
“I Almost Quit” Jeremiah 20:7-9, 12-13
(This is where Jeremiah is tired and ready to resign )
7 O LORD, you deceived [a] me, and I was deceived [b] ;
you overpowered me and prevailed.
I am ridiculed all day long;
everyone mocks me.
8 Whenever I speak, I cry out
proclaiming violence and destruction.
So the word of the LORD has brought me
insult and reproach all day long.
(This is where he tries to resign but can’t )
9 But if I say, "I will not mention him
or speak any more in his name,"
his word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
indeed, I cannot.
(This is where his determination is renewed )
12 O LORD Almighty, you who examine the righteous
and probe the heart and mind,
let me see your vengeance upon them,
for to you I have committed my cause.
(This is where Jeremiah celebrates )
13 Sing to the LORD!
Give praise to the LORD!
He rescues the life of the needy
from the hands of the wicked.
The first thing you need to know is
1. You matter
2. You are important to the Kingdom
I. The Assignment is Tough
Jeremiah 1:5 “ 5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew [a] you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."
A. There is a conflict between your flesh and your spirit. Your flesh doesn’t want you to complete the task because it’s hard, but your spirit knows that you have to keep going.
B. You are being challenged by those around you.
C. You are facing constant frustration
i. Intimidation: enemy trying to stop you
ii. Humiliation: the enemy using your torment to stop others
iii. Annihilation: the enemy trying to stop God by stopping you
II. Anointed for the trial
A. If God sent you to the appointment, then He anointed you for the trial. His hand is on you and will be with you throughout the trials.
B. And if God sent you in, He will bring you out.
III. Awesome Testimony
A. When you get out of the trial, you will have an awesome testimony about how God can see you through seemingly impossible situations.
Here is Bishop’s alliteration:
You were in a SITUATION that was so tough that you were contemplating RESIGNATION. But you remembered your CONSECRATION(anointing) thus remembering your OBLIGATIONS. God sends a word (church/Bible study/friends) to give you DETERMINATION. And you shouldn’t worry about your haters because God handles VINDICATION. All God requires of you is that you give Him the CELEBRATION right now.
Sermon notes 12/13/09“A Word While You Are Waiting”Galatians 6:9 “9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”
Often people (me) get frustrated while waiting for God’s plan to come to fruition. God gave you the vision, and you are acting on it, but you start wondering when will the vision move from your future to your present. That is the waiting period. The enemy wants you to give up. And the closer you get to the vision coming to pass, the more the enemy will try to frustrate you to get you to move out of purpose.
I. You have to be Faithful beyond frustrations
2 Corinthians 4:16 “16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.”
1 Timothy 6:12 “12Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses”
John 15:1 “ 1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful.”
Pain should never eclipse your purpose!!!!
A. Peace (Philipians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”) You have to have peace in the midst of the trials. Keep your mind on Jesus, not on the pain/frustrations.
B. Productive: You have to keep doing God’s work even while you are going through the trials.
C. Present: You have to keep showing up. Show up to church. Show up to work. Show up to your personal devotion time.
II. You have to Focus on the Facts
The fact is that GOD has given you an assignment/a vision/ a direction. Keep your eyes on that! We want God to make everything work on our time but His time is not ours!
Remember you are not the first person to get frustrated with waiting: Job was frustrated and Jeremiah was too. Lots of people get tired of waiting, but they still don’t abandon their assignments.
Job 7:1 “"Does not man have hard service on earth?
Are not his days like those of a hired man?”
(Life is hard)
Job 14:5 “ 5 Man's days are determined;
you have decreed the number of his months
and have set limits he cannot exceed.”
Our days are limited but God is infinite.
Job 14:14 “If a man dies, will he live again?
All the days of my hard service
I will wait for my renewal [a] to come.”
(On the hard days you have to look to God for renewal.)
A. You have prophetic evidence. Remember God spoke to you! Believe God!
B. You have to have proper ethics. Just because you are going thru, doesn’t give you the right to act a fool. You have to do good works in spite of the pain.)
C. You must have a posture of expectancy. Look like what you are believing God for! Don’t walk around downtrodden but hold your head up!
God keeps His promises.
Hebrews 6:13 “13When God made his promise to Abraham, since there was no one greater for him to swear by, he swore by himself,”
Numbers 23:19 “19 God is not a man, that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?”
III. You must Fight to the Finish!
A. You can’t give up. (see last weeks sermon notes)
B. You have to SOW into God’s Kingdom.
i. Tithe
ii. Spend time with God in His presence
C. Serve: Stay on your post. Keep doing God’s work.
D. Spiritual: Psalm 102:1-13
(This part is the frustrations of the person crying out)
1 Hear my prayer, O LORD;
let my cry for help come to you.
2 Do not hide your face from me
when I am in distress.
Turn your ear to me;
when I call, answer me quickly.
(I need You right now. I need a word this moment)
3 For my days vanish like smoke;
my bones burn like glowing embers.
4 My heart is blighted and withered like grass;
I forget to eat my food.
5 Because of my loud groaning
I am reduced to skin and bones.
6 I am like a desert owl,
like an owl among the ruins.
7 I lie awake; I have become
like a bird alone on a roof.
8 All day long my enemies taunt me;
those who rail against me use my name as a curse.
9 For I eat ashes as my food
and mingle my drink with tears
10 because of your great wrath,
for you have taken me up and thrown me aside.
(feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster)
11 My days are like the evening shadow;
I wither away like grass.
(I am withering away and don’t know how much more I can take!)
12 But you, O LORD, sit enthroned forever;
your renown endures through all generations.
13 You will arise and have compassion on Zion,
for it is time to show favor to her;
the appointed time has come.
(but I still believe in You and Your Greatness. You have been good to generations before me and will be good to those to come. I know that Your blessing is upon us. I know that deliverance is NOW.)
You can catch the 2nd sermon on www.mtzionanywhere.org
Saturday, December 12, 2009
I Want to Quit
I want to quit. I am tired and weary from walking uphill. Each time I think that I've gotten to a resting point or see a bend in the road hopefully offering easier terrain, the road tricks me and gets steeper. I am walking uphill. And right now I am going up such a steep mountain that I am climbing - not walking. My hands are bloodied, and my feet are slipping. I want to quit.
I really want to throw the towel in.
I really want to throw the towel in.
Friday, December 11, 2009
What Tiger Has Taught Us?
This afternoon the work chatter turned to the subject of Tiger Woods and his recent infidelities. A co-worker mentioned that Tiger should just divorce Elin and move on. This peer said that it would be cheaper to leave his wife than to keep her. Others in my office then stated other celebrity cheaters as examples of how it is better to just leave your wife instead of trying to work it out. Their rationale? That the relationship is so irreparably damaged that it can never be repaired.
Well, ummm, no, I don't believe that the relationship should be tossed like yesterday's leftovers. I don't think that a marriage should ever be thrown away without fighting tooth and nail to save it. Period.
Infidelity is devastating to a marriage. It crushes you like nothing else, but you can recover from it. Does that mean that Tiger and Elin will live happily ever after? I don't know. Does that mean that you will? I don't know. But I do believe that you can repent, forgive your spouse, and be a testimony to God's forgiveness. I do believe that a your marriage covenant involved you, your spouse, and God. Have you ever been to a wedding? Do you remember this passage from Matthew 19:6? It goes like this, "6So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." Remember that line? That includes you and your spouse, not just someone outside your marriage.
You have to forgive just as Christ forgives you daily. In Matthew 18, Jesus teaches about forgiveness. How many times is too many to forgive the person you love the most on this earth? How many times is too many for God to forgive what you've done in your life? What about just what you've done today? See what I mean? If God forgives us daily, don't we have to forgive others, especially our spouses.
I am not saying that it will be easy. I am not saying that the road will not be full of minefields. I am saying that it can be done - IF you put in the work and prayer to move forward. And if you are able to move forward, you will be better for it. You will be a testimony to the love and forgiveness of God.
So what has Tiger taught us? Nothing. But what has Jesus taught us? Everything.
Well, ummm, no, I don't believe that the relationship should be tossed like yesterday's leftovers. I don't think that a marriage should ever be thrown away without fighting tooth and nail to save it. Period.
Infidelity is devastating to a marriage. It crushes you like nothing else, but you can recover from it. Does that mean that Tiger and Elin will live happily ever after? I don't know. Does that mean that you will? I don't know. But I do believe that you can repent, forgive your spouse, and be a testimony to God's forgiveness. I do believe that a your marriage covenant involved you, your spouse, and God. Have you ever been to a wedding? Do you remember this passage from Matthew 19:6? It goes like this, "6So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." Remember that line? That includes you and your spouse, not just someone outside your marriage.
You have to forgive just as Christ forgives you daily. In Matthew 18, Jesus teaches about forgiveness. How many times is too many to forgive the person you love the most on this earth? How many times is too many for God to forgive what you've done in your life? What about just what you've done today? See what I mean? If God forgives us daily, don't we have to forgive others, especially our spouses.
I am not saying that it will be easy. I am not saying that the road will not be full of minefields. I am saying that it can be done - IF you put in the work and prayer to move forward. And if you are able to move forward, you will be better for it. You will be a testimony to the love and forgiveness of God.
So what has Tiger taught us? Nothing. But what has Jesus taught us? Everything.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Depleted
If I had to use just 1 word to describe myself right now, the word would be depleted. I am depleted. According to Merriam-Webster, depleted means to be "empty of a principal substance." Well, that is me right now. I am depleted.
Now before you regular readers wonder "What happened? Where is our word for the day? What happened to press through the pain?" I still believe all of that. I believe that God is going to work a miracle. I believe that I must be getting close to the goal because of all of the adversity. I understand that the enemy is trying to deter me. I will live out Philippians 3:14: "I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." But right now, in this moment, I am depleted.
And for the longest time I believed that feeling tired, worn out, distraught, upset, or overwhelmed meant that I didn't have enough faith. That I didn't believe enough. That if I just prayed a little harder/fasted a bit longer/read a bit more that I would get over the hump and feel re-energized. Honestly, those things worked most of the time. But this time.. uhhhh, not so much. Then I realized admitting that you are tired doesn't mean that you gave up, it means that you need a rest. That you need to disconnect from all of the things that are draining you so that when you are in your next spiritual battle you have enough ammo to fight. And not only to fight, but to fight and win!
So in 2010, I am taking a break. I don't know how long of a break I will need but I will take it. I don't know where I am going and I really don't know when I will be back. But I am going to recharge. I will replenish because I have more Kingdom work to do.
Now before you regular readers wonder "What happened? Where is our word for the day? What happened to press through the pain?" I still believe all of that. I believe that God is going to work a miracle. I believe that I must be getting close to the goal because of all of the adversity. I understand that the enemy is trying to deter me. I will live out Philippians 3:14: "I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." But right now, in this moment, I am depleted.
And for the longest time I believed that feeling tired, worn out, distraught, upset, or overwhelmed meant that I didn't have enough faith. That I didn't believe enough. That if I just prayed a little harder/fasted a bit longer/read a bit more that I would get over the hump and feel re-energized. Honestly, those things worked most of the time. But this time.. uhhhh, not so much. Then I realized admitting that you are tired doesn't mean that you gave up, it means that you need a rest. That you need to disconnect from all of the things that are draining you so that when you are in your next spiritual battle you have enough ammo to fight. And not only to fight, but to fight and win!
So in 2010, I am taking a break. I don't know how long of a break I will need but I will take it. I don't know where I am going and I really don't know when I will be back. But I am going to recharge. I will replenish because I have more Kingdom work to do.
Waiting With Expectation
So I am still waiting... I am still waiting with expectation of a breakthrough. I will remain steadfast and faithful. I will remain obedient. I am battered and bruised but not broken. I am somber but joyful. I know you are probably sick of hearing about my time in the blessings waiting room. I know I am tired of being in the waiting room, but I would rather be in waiting on God's promises than anywhere else. As long as I am waiting, I am not going backwards. And as all of you are blessed that means I am moving up in the line. God's going to call my number and deliver His blessings soon. I refuse to lose my spot in line.
So here is some hold music to tide you over.
So here is some hold music to tide you over.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Waiting...
I know you are waiting for me to write something and I am waiting on God to tell me what to say.. so here is a video to help you pass the time...
Saturday, December 5, 2009
No Words
Sometimes words allude me. Especially, today. Today I am waiting on God to speak to me. So instead of my words you get a video. Remember Oprah's Legends Weekend? Remember hearing the women sing - no, sang - about how they've been changed? I know I've been changed. And while today is a wordless day, I am celebrating God for the change.
2 Corinthians 3:14-18
14But their minds were made dull, for to this day the same veil remains when the old covenant is read. It has not been removed, because only in Christ is it taken away. 15Even to this day when Moses is read, a veil covers their hearts. 16But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. 17Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 18And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect[a] the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
2 Corinthians 3:14-18
14But their minds were made dull, for to this day the same veil remains when the old covenant is read. It has not been removed, because only in Christ is it taken away. 15Even to this day when Moses is read, a veil covers their hearts. 16But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. 17Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 18And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect[a] the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Speak Life
Speak life. I never understood this phrase until recently. I have often prayed, but I have always been a silent prayer. But I now understand speaking life over your situation. The word says :
5 In my anguish I cried to the LORD,
and he answered by setting me free. (Psalm 118:5)
I even asked around one day to see if God can hear me when I pray silently. While I believe that He can hear me, I need to hear me say the words out loud. Saying the words out loud cuts out all of the pretense, all of the poetry, all of the showmanship. Saying the words out loud allows you to speak life over yourself.
I have a friend who is struggling with this right now. According to him, he cannot find the words needed to approach God. He feels alone. He feels unworthy. In my spirit, I see his problem in a totally different way. I see the enemy whispering in his ear that he is unworthy, that he is unloved, that he is undeserving. And unfortunately this friend is believing the enemy. But in my spirit I see this friend healed. I see this person whole. I see this person with joy again. Why? Because I see this person speaking over their situation. While I can pray for you and your grandma can pray for you, I firmly believe that you have to seek God on your own behalf. That you have to take step 1. God will take the next 100 steps and even carry you when you are too weak to walk. But you have to take step one.
So, what is step one? Step one is going into your prayer closet and opening your mouth. Confess your sins and ask for God’s help in fixing you and the situation. Will it feel weird at first? Yes. Speaking out loud when no one else is in the room felt really strange to me at first. Then I tried to speak "correctly" and with "correct" language to talk to God. Then I realized that God already knows my problems, so I shouldn’t try to spin it or slant it to gain his favor. So I just start talking. Thanking Him for His goodness and spilling my issues at His feet. And the more I talk, the more I cry. The more I cry, the lighter the load becomes and the better I feel. The burden is lifted and the healing begins.
I know, I know. It sounds too simple, right? It really is that simple. God never said you have to be clean to come to Him. If so, there would be no Christians. No one is clean enough to go to God. No one. The enemy wants you to think that you have to earn God’s forgiveness. But you don’t. God doesn’t have some obstacle course for you to complete before you are healed. All you have to do is open your mouth and speak life. Your healing will be complete before you finish talking. So cry out to the Lord, I see you free.
5 In my anguish I cried to the LORD,
and he answered by setting me free. (Psalm 118:5)
I even asked around one day to see if God can hear me when I pray silently. While I believe that He can hear me, I need to hear me say the words out loud. Saying the words out loud cuts out all of the pretense, all of the poetry, all of the showmanship. Saying the words out loud allows you to speak life over yourself.
I have a friend who is struggling with this right now. According to him, he cannot find the words needed to approach God. He feels alone. He feels unworthy. In my spirit, I see his problem in a totally different way. I see the enemy whispering in his ear that he is unworthy, that he is unloved, that he is undeserving. And unfortunately this friend is believing the enemy. But in my spirit I see this friend healed. I see this person whole. I see this person with joy again. Why? Because I see this person speaking over their situation. While I can pray for you and your grandma can pray for you, I firmly believe that you have to seek God on your own behalf. That you have to take step 1. God will take the next 100 steps and even carry you when you are too weak to walk. But you have to take step one.
So, what is step one? Step one is going into your prayer closet and opening your mouth. Confess your sins and ask for God’s help in fixing you and the situation. Will it feel weird at first? Yes. Speaking out loud when no one else is in the room felt really strange to me at first. Then I tried to speak "correctly" and with "correct" language to talk to God. Then I realized that God already knows my problems, so I shouldn’t try to spin it or slant it to gain his favor. So I just start talking. Thanking Him for His goodness and spilling my issues at His feet. And the more I talk, the more I cry. The more I cry, the lighter the load becomes and the better I feel. The burden is lifted and the healing begins.
I know, I know. It sounds too simple, right? It really is that simple. God never said you have to be clean to come to Him. If so, there would be no Christians. No one is clean enough to go to God. No one. The enemy wants you to think that you have to earn God’s forgiveness. But you don’t. God doesn’t have some obstacle course for you to complete before you are healed. All you have to do is open your mouth and speak life. Your healing will be complete before you finish talking. So cry out to the Lord, I see you free.
Do you Believe in God?
Wow. This week has been a tough week. So today we are going to address tough questions: Do you believe in God? If so, how do you know? If not, why not? Whew! I told you, we are going to tackle tough questions tonight.
So let me just jump in. Yes, I believe in God. How do I know? Because the hell that I have gone through should have killed me a long time ago. I know, I know… pastors always talk about what should have killed you, and you think I am using a metaphor to make my point. Nope, I am serious. I am not strong enough to handle the mess that I have gone through or am going through. Believe me. I am not that strong.
I have recently come to operate in a relationship with God. I wish I could say that I was always saved and on the good foot. Naw, I wasn’t. I wrestle with what I want to do and what I should do daily! I learned to lean on God in the midst of chaos. Now, let me explain to you a bit about myself. I am a fixer. I am the person who can always come up with a solution. But I had a problem that I couldn’t fix. Don’t get me wrong... I tried. I tried 100’s of ways. Eventually, it came down to this: I was going to die or catch a criminal case or depend on God. In the midst of tears and vomiting, I decided to trust God. Is it always easy? Nope. Am I better for it? Yep. Had you told me that in December 2009 I would be talking openly about my relationship with God, I would have laughed.
Am I a Bible scholar? Nope. Well, let me say not yet. I am reading more and more of the Word daily. And I am ready to learn more. Some say that you can’t know God without deep scholarly study. I disagree. I think that you should study the Word. I think that you should research all that you can about the period of time that Jesus walked the Earth. I think you should increase your knowledge. But I also believe that your personal relationship with God is above and beyond texts. I understand that my relationship with God is based on my worship of Him and His love of me in spite of my mess. And that heavenly relationship well worth all of the hell that I’ve gone through.
So let me just jump in. Yes, I believe in God. How do I know? Because the hell that I have gone through should have killed me a long time ago. I know, I know… pastors always talk about what should have killed you, and you think I am using a metaphor to make my point. Nope, I am serious. I am not strong enough to handle the mess that I have gone through or am going through. Believe me. I am not that strong.
I have recently come to operate in a relationship with God. I wish I could say that I was always saved and on the good foot. Naw, I wasn’t. I wrestle with what I want to do and what I should do daily! I learned to lean on God in the midst of chaos. Now, let me explain to you a bit about myself. I am a fixer. I am the person who can always come up with a solution. But I had a problem that I couldn’t fix. Don’t get me wrong... I tried. I tried 100’s of ways. Eventually, it came down to this: I was going to die or catch a criminal case or depend on God. In the midst of tears and vomiting, I decided to trust God. Is it always easy? Nope. Am I better for it? Yep. Had you told me that in December 2009 I would be talking openly about my relationship with God, I would have laughed.
Am I a Bible scholar? Nope. Well, let me say not yet. I am reading more and more of the Word daily. And I am ready to learn more. Some say that you can’t know God without deep scholarly study. I disagree. I think that you should study the Word. I think that you should research all that you can about the period of time that Jesus walked the Earth. I think you should increase your knowledge. But I also believe that your personal relationship with God is above and beyond texts. I understand that my relationship with God is based on my worship of Him and His love of me in spite of my mess. And that heavenly relationship well worth all of the hell that I’ve gone through.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I am sick
OK, so today i am sick. So I really need sleep, not deep thoughts.. so re-read a few previous posts and comment on those. (or drop OJ by my house)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Where Does Your Help Come From?
I am a problem solver. I like to fix stuff. If I see a problem, boom! I am on it working out a plan A, B, and C. You know just in case the first plan doesn’t work. If you need a problem solved, let me know. Bang! Three plans with options and phone numbers by the time you finish talking. Heck, I went on vacation and ended up re-caulking a tub. Why? I saw a problem and had to fix it. I am a fixer.
So it is extremely frustrating to me when I see a problem and can’t fix it. Normally that happens when it is a personal problem of a friend. There are things that I can see, that I can speak over, that I can want to fix – but the reality is I am not supposed to fix it. If I step in and fix your problem, then when will you learn how to fix your own stuff? In Psalm 121 it says:
It doesn’t say your help comes from N.D. Ellery, does it?
So I will support you. I will pray for you. I will cheer for your victories and cry for your losses. But I can’t fix this one. So the lesson is for you to learn to depend on the Lord and for me to watch the Lord work in your life.
So it is extremely frustrating to me when I see a problem and can’t fix it. Normally that happens when it is a personal problem of a friend. There are things that I can see, that I can speak over, that I can want to fix – but the reality is I am not supposed to fix it. If I step in and fix your problem, then when will you learn how to fix your own stuff? In Psalm 121 it says:
1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
It doesn’t say your help comes from N.D. Ellery, does it?
So I will support you. I will pray for you. I will cheer for your victories and cry for your losses. But I can’t fix this one. So the lesson is for you to learn to depend on the Lord and for me to watch the Lord work in your life.
I Tripped Today
Well, I am nothing if not transparent. Maybe I am transparent to a fault. I dunno. I do believe that admitting my triumphs and mistakes may make the road easier for someone else. So I am admitting that today I tripped - spiritually. To be real honest, I fell on my face. Boo-hooing. Snot running. I fell down.
And I thought I was doing good. I had a decent morning. I was cool - well, so I thought. But one thing set me off! Like just got all over me and I was done. I didn't pause. I didn't hesitate. I was mad and hurt and really not pleasant at all.
But it is funny how God works.. Immediately after my fall, He sent 2 folks to offer me an encouraging word. And just like that, I got back up and dusted myself off. Now I can keep walking.
And I thought I was doing good. I had a decent morning. I was cool - well, so I thought. But one thing set me off! Like just got all over me and I was done. I didn't pause. I didn't hesitate. I was mad and hurt and really not pleasant at all.
But it is funny how God works.. Immediately after my fall, He sent 2 folks to offer me an encouraging word. And just like that, I got back up and dusted myself off. Now I can keep walking.
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